Lately, I've felt sad because my dream guy is getting married. Two weeks ago, 35-year-old pop singer and actor Jay Chou announced that he will marry his 20-year-old girlfriend.
I thought at this point of my life, since I am already OK about my friends and even ex-boyfriends getting married before I do, I'd be impassive about singers I admired as a teenager getting married. But I am not.
My older cousins used to tease me about how I was a "crazy fan." I always thought to myself, "You don't understand. He sings my thoughts."
While all the other songs were about boy-and-girl romances, his songs talked about marriage, family issues, scars of wars and the environment. Sure, they don't seem so rare now. But back then it was a big breakthrough in China.
Chou's music means so much for people who were born between 1985 and 1995. From 2000 to 2010 when we were teenagers, we were listening to Chou while having our first crush on campus, feeling rebellious for the first time, and starting to think about things on our own. Chou's music was right there, hitting the audiences on their G spot.
I guess each generation has their own spiritual idol in music. It's like Michael Jackson; not everyone loves his music, but nobody can deny his influence.
He still manages to make a whole new album every year, and some of the songs are very catchy.
Although Chou's still a very talented composer and singer, he's not right for me any more. We would like to see more of the sorrows, helplessness and thoughts of a young adult, but his style is going too showy and flashy for me.
"He didn't change. It's only that we are growing up, growing out of his style," my friends tell me. Many of my friends have started to listen to his albums and other music from the past released when we were teenagers. This is so sad.
Apparently, there are more people making music nowadays. But nobody's music could impress me as much, because nothing would be so fresh to me now.
This is really an end of an era. Maybe my sadness doesn't make sense to other people. But I don't want Chou to get married, and I don't want past memories to fade or the music that was there for a whole generation's youth to end.
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